Up and Down, Up and Down...

I'm not sure how to start this off at all....I've been really really really bad...

The best way of putting it is that, I just stopped caring for a few weeks. I stopped caring about the progress I made, stopped caring about what I was going to do or eat, stopped caring about myself period. Not a very good way to be.

So I was off my JC in the worst way possible, I mean I was eating out almost everyday. Oddly I still kept thinking that tomorrow I would stop and eat what I was supposed to, the next day though I would give into a craving and continue to eat bad for the rest of the day. I been having good days and bad days, going up and down.

I not going to quit though. That I'm adamant about, I don't want to quit and start the climb back up to a place where I'm not me anymore, I'm someone else. So some positives, still went to JC on Monday (but had a 5lb gain >.< ), joined a gym yesterday, and have been eating my JC food again. Also I changed the JCC the I see, I never really connected with my old JCC, she was much older then I was. My new JCC is closer to my age and is very supportive. Hmmm I can't think of anything else I would like to say.

I'll update again soon, and this time have more good news to report~

Awesome Week and New Toy

So I had an awesome weigh-in on Monday, lost 5lbs. I haven't lost so much since my first week, but after I take into account what I gained when I was a little naughty...I still lost 2.4lbs! So I finally feel like I'm back on track. As an added bonus I broke outta the 210s, and I'm sitting at 209.4lbs right now.

Also on Monday my BodyMedia Fit arrived, got home, let it charge, and found out I'm having some tech problems...I seem to have an issue with getting it to work, been at it for two days and not getting anywhere. I've sent an email and got a not very helpful response. So I'm still trying to tinker with stuff and see if I can get it going. Going to try on my bros laptop and see if that works better.

Other wise not much going on, trying to set a new daily routine up to include more exercise. I seem to have lots of energy now so I'm trying to add new dvd's and I want to start going to a yoga class.

Hmm I`ll end it here. Ciao!

Getting Back on Track

So I need to explain the horrid time I've been having. Starting with work... My new shift at work is earlier then before but only by one hour. Let me tell you though that one hour is making a huge difference, I'm having a lot of trouble getting up sometimes. After I did my test for re certification I had to wait 3 weeks to find out if I passed or failed. I passed but it was a stress I didn't need that was always in the back of my mind. After Christmas (which went very well, everyone had a great time) I got the flu. This flu stayed with me for a good 2 weeks and I still don't feel 100%.

During this time I stopped eating my JC food and didn't go to my meetings. I know, I was bad. To get back on track I went today and happily only gained 1.8lbs. My JCC also did measurements and I'm down 2 inches. So I'm back on board, got my food and signed up for the new metabolic max program. I can't wait till I get it, my JCC said it's going to take 3 weeks for it to come in though *sigh*. Also I went on the website for the first time in ages and found out that Carrie Fisher(omg I'm a huge Star Wars fan) is the new celebrity spokesperson for JC, she's just starting and set a goal to lose 30lbs.

In other news I did a lot of reading while I was sick, the down side is I have books on every available surface in my room haha (I got a Chapters gift card for Xmas). I read all the books in the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris so far (there's another one coming out in May this year I think), and I was surprised by how much I loved them...Ever since Twilight I've been kinda put off vampire books. Another series I started on is called the Parasol Protectorate series by Gail Carriger (the books are titled Soulless, Changeless, Blameless) it's more in the steampunk sub genre but a very good read. Also started on The Ghost Hunter series by Victoria Lauri, I love stuff that has to do with ghost and paranormal stuff (I get scared easily but still love it). All these books however have helped me make up my mind about getting an e-reader. I don't have the space for more books and since I read so fast I'm always buying some. A friend from work was also kind enough to give me a cd with a few ebooks already loaded on it. I've decided which model and make e-reader I want (Sony Daily Edition) now to save up for it. 

Thanks all for letting me get this off my chest, ttyl!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Holiday Bustle

I normally love the holidays. I`m never the kinda person who gets flustered, or moody over all the stuff that happens around this time of year. This year though, I can`t seem to handle it. It feels like so much is going on in such a short time frame. Lots of changes at work(new shift and a re-certification I have to do) plus trying to get presents done(not even close there) and then the parties/get togethers. Add to it that this year I'm on JC and trying to lose weight....

So because of the new change of shift at work, I changed my appointments at JC from Wednesdays to Mondays. Yesterday after weigh-in I had lost 1.8lbs. I also hit 20lbs lost and my weight now 211.8lbs is 25% from my goal weight. I decided to get rewards for myself for every 25% I lose. Since I have a party to go to soon, and I need a nice top, I`m planing on spending a little extra then I normally do on clothes. I`ll also be very honest, recently I have lost my drive on the whole weight loss thing. Don`t get me wrong I`m NOT quitting, but the urges to be bad and just eat whatever are getting worse. So far I`m still doing ok, and I`m still determined not to give up. I can totally feel the changes in my body(I swear I felt my hip bone today haha) and see it in my clothes. I know I`m just losing that first high, and I need to introduce some new things to keep me motivated. Maybe I need to look into joining some kinda fitness class.

My book addiction has been helping me through the stress though haha. Just finished reading three books of the Black Dagger Brotherhood series by JR Ward. I`m so in love with the series, as soon as I can I`m getting the rest of the books. If your a paranormal romance fan these books are a must read. I`m going to end this here, my younger brother wants to go shopping now *sigh*.

Late Update

So sorry that this is late. I've been meaning to post my weigh-in results, but been getting sidetracked. So for my weigh-in on Wednesday the 24th, I lost 1.8 pounds and I'm now at 213.6!

In all honesty the numbers don't really make me feel that great. I keep wishing the number was smaller...I think I'm just wanting to get out of the 200s fast. I'm almost there but I sometimes have to remind myself to take it one week at a time. BUT there is something that makes me feel pretty happy daily. My clothes are all so loose! I've been wearing things that stopped fitting before and now fit perfect. I had to buy a new winter coat because mine looked like I was drowning in it. I love it, I would not have bought it before( it cinches at the waist, so would not have looked good)but now I feel like my body shape is starting to come out! I absolutely love my coat, it looks so cute paired with my mitts, scarf and tuque.

I've still been doing my 100 days lessons, but I'm only going to post things that really hit home. A lot of the lessons are stuff you've heard before. Most of the exercises are stuff you need to practice doing and not so much about writing. I also want to make a post about the three books I recently finished, and the new ones I really want to get. Look forward to it!

Chapters 14, 15, and 16

Not too much to say today. Need to get to sleep soon, so I'll try and keep this short.

Chapter 14 is titled Morning Effects Evening, basically the whole don't skip breakfast deal. When you skip breakfast you tend to 'crash' later on, this also causes a lot of people to munch all afternoon and after dinner. So eat your breakfast kids.

Chapter 15 is called First Two Bites. When you eat food for flavor only, the first two bites taste the best/have the most flavor. After your just eating for the sake of eating. A good habit to get into is to have your first two bites, savor them, and then decided if you really need to eat the rest. Chances are you already got what you needed from those two bites.

Finally Chapter 16 is called Nurturing Power of Food. It's more or less the same as the last chapter. This time it says that the comfort you get from food you usually get from the first two bites. They had a good example in the book about when to stop eating. Ever come home and started eating something (like a tub of ice-cream) and just kept eating it hoping to get that comfort feeling? You keep thinking the next bite with be it, you'll feel better and then you'll stop. Except that it never happens, you end up feeling worse. If the first two bites don't make you feel good then you don't need this food.

The exercises were mostly about the practice of eating and then stopping, and having breakfast lol. Okay time for bed, got work early in the morning... and we might get snow tonight!